demoralised! haven't gotten back most of my papers, but this is enough, not even a single BEE lol. i should be glad that i'm leaving huh? but i'm not one who like to run away from my problems. anyway if i continue to slack, i'll face the exact same problems, no matter where i go. thinking about it, i'll be entering U at the end of next year, but i'm still like.. THIS. i've absolutely no idea what i want to be, what course i want to take, and i've no plans on how to achieve what i want. moreover, i lack time management, self-discipline, independence, responsibility and every single positive trait necessary for success. except maybe optimism, which is kinda useless. i should start a 5-year plan, to mug hard! for my future. at least, even if i don't know what course i want to take, i'll be able to choose the uni and course that i want, instead of the other way round. like for Os, i didn't know which jc i wanted to go to, so my aim was to do well so i could choose the jc, instead of the jcs choosing me. and it worked, right?

3k on mon, wonder if it'll just be another demoralising day??