there is a chinese chess competition organised by NTU this sat. and i m really reluctant to play. cause i see all the pro zhes in my sch i wanna die liao. hai surely get owned de. and playing with guys who are like really totally different standards from me is like chicken feet to them and like crazy to me!! ah!!! i feel that i m dreading that day cause i have a feeling that i will loe EVERYTHING. ok go there for practice sessions more like it. and i think my team got me i pretty ... cause surely cant win so i m like dragging everyone down the drain with me. HAI. sian! and have to wake up early sommore. bleahx. may the god bless me that day :)